Monday, August 26, 2013

The slow torture of Mary Weiss

Last week I got an email from Mike Howard.  It had been sent at 3:56 am.  “Sorry for this email, but Mary suffered another stroke last evening.  I'm heading down to the hospital now again.”

I wish I could say this came as a shock.  But to be honest, I can’t.  How anyone can survive the kind of psychological torture Mary Weiss has been forced to endure I don’t know.  When I think of Mary, I think of the Book of Job.  I think of God making a deal with the University of Minnesota.  You can take away her child.  Let him commit suicide.  Hide the facts.  Deny responsibility.  Refuse to investigate. Tell people that her son’s suicide was her fault.  File a legal action against her demanding money that she does not have, just to intimidate her.  See exactly how much she can stand, then torture her some more. 

When I first met Mary, five years ago, she was a strong, determined, very angry woman.  It was the fall of 2008 at the Coffee News Café in St. Paul; I remember she was wearing an Obama campaign button on her sweater.  But everything changed sixteen months ago when she suffered a severe stroke. She has fought back hard to recover, but the road hasn’t been easy. It seems as if a month doesn’t pass without Mike calling the paramedics, or rushing her to the doctor, or taking her to the emergency room. This recent stroke was the most severe setback in a while. Mary has been in the hospital for twelve days.

Fighting the University of Minnesota may have been the right thing for Mary to do – in fact, it may well have been the only thing to do – but it has taken a vicious toll on her health.  I don’t think anyone who has not gone through such a battle can understand the kind of emotional exhaustion it involves. Your days cycle between gnawing anxiety and futile rage. Your thoughts grow narrow and obsessive. You struggle to sleep, but when you do, you are tormented by nightmares.  Occasionally you are given slivers of hope – if not, it probably would be impossible to keep going – but they are rare.  Even the people who support you say you are being eaten up from the inside.

Worst of all are the empty promises of help. You file a complaint with an advocate or legal office, only to see the complaint go nowhere. You find damning evidence that might turn the battle in your favor, but you’re instructed that it has to be kept secret. You work constantly to make the case public, hoping that publicity will bring about change, but after only a few days the story is forgotten. You meet with reporters and politicians who promise to help, but they don’t follow through. Nobody seems to understand what a devastating blow it is to delay, or stop returning calls, or offer help and then pull it away.  To them it probably seems like a small thing.  But when you are desperate, these false promises feel like a kick in the head.  They are almost worse than nothing at all.

Nobody knows this better than Mike Howard.  It has been 3397 days since Dan died, and I doubt that a single one of those days has passed without Mike working on the case. To call him driven would be to completely understate the fury with which he has pursued this. He is like a man imprisoned on death row for a crime he didn’t commit, fighting and clawing to find some way out before the execution date. There is not a single document related to Dan’s case that he has not committed to memory, not an angle for appeal that he has not explored. And what is the result? “We have worked on this thing for nine fucking years and we have gotten nothing,” Mike says. No vindication, no recognition, no justice.

Maybe justice will come eventually.  I hope so, not just for Mary’s sake but for that of other families who have been abused and mistreated by the university. I wish every family had advocates as tenacious and single-minded as Mike, but people like that don’t come around very often. The fact is, University of Minnesota officials have known for a long time that they are fighting an injured, emotionally exhausted 70 year-old woman in fragile health, and they believe they can crush her.  They believe they can accomplish this not by attacking her directly, as they have done before, but by a series of endless denials, delays and stonewalling.  If they can outlast her, they think, they will win.  And apparently many other people will simply watch and wait until that happens.

2 comments:

  1. Thanks Carl. Actually, Waterboarding comes to mind in describing the behavior of the University of Minnesota. "Boarding" is a form of psychological torture in which water is poured over cloth covering the face and breathing passages of an immobilized and capacity lacking clinical study enrollee or his desperate mother, causing the individuals to experience the sensation of drowning. The U-MN was the first to offer classes on the technique taught through the psychiatry department, overseen by the legal counsel and promoted by the PR office. 'Boarding' can cause extreme pain, dry drowning they call it. It can cause damage to the lungs and throat, bring on suicide, cause brain damage, strokes, and other physical injuries including broken hearts and even death due to struggling against the very institution and doctors that have mastered the technique to satisfy their financial greed. Some adverse physical consequences can manifest themselves months or years after the initial event, such as the death of the enrollee, while psychological effects employed by the U-MN were designed to last forever. Yep, the U-MN certainly lives up to it's Mission Statement - Driven to Discover

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  2. Please tell Mary she is a hero to many of us. And if there’s anything we can do beyond signing the petition and sharing your articles around, let us know!

    This column expresses better than I ever could what it feels like to fight for “your day in court” against a powerful institution. Not an inspiring experience. Lawsuits are important, and they have to get done … but no victory worth having was ever won solely by lawyers and plaintiffs. It takes a movement – we’ll have to keep thrashing around trying to figure out how to build one.

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